5/4/24
time for a update after a month of silence (apologies)!
as testing season begins, im more motivated to get my shit together and pull through. i'm at the top of my english class,which is a huge motivation boost to really lock. in
there's more i wanna do.. so much more!! gonna update my site more.. looking foward to my birthday.. nothing can pull me down!! cuz,, i wont let it anyway. we are in the age of positivity

3/18/24
im on spring break now.
it's nice not having to anything all the time for a bit, besides bedrotting i guess. i got into eddsworld again out of boredom, though i dont get to talk about it often when not with my best friend. it's nice, theres nothing else i really have to mentally focus on when im not obsessed with a piece of media
media consumption is like a good distraction from everything

3/1/24
new momth, hopefully with a fresh good start
life hasn't been the best, but the more i dwell on it the worse I'll feel, and i wanna lighten things up around here a little.
yesterday i went out to eat with my dad, and found myself talking and enjoying the whole conversation. i wanna spend more time with him, as it's not often i do. i am thankful for those nice things in life, like seeing my dad, or talking to my best friends, or my pets
makes me feel better

2/18/24
When you're all alone I'll reach for you
When you're feelin' low I'll be there too

2/17/24
got my hair straightened today. however i got really upset because i accidentally forgot the cute hairclips i picked out at the store so ill have to get them later on mondat. it's really not that serious but i got super in my feelings about it because i liked them a lot. i still have these cute ribbons im gonna make an outfit w tho.

my hair looks like rika furudo if it was a little past the shoulder now

2/15/24
i missed school today cause some girl got me sick. so i have a lot of assignments to get caught up on when i get back to school. Fun! i spent my day working on my site, and being asleep, i took a bath for the first time in months (ive been taking showers im not nasty) but i lost track of time and accidentally sat there for about 3 hours. i argued w my mom which WASNT as great but hopefully ill be in good enough shape to go back to school tomorrow. i hate missing days of school because i have tons to get caught up on. ive missed 2 days this week :(

2/14/24
i hate when i get nervous and my heart rate starts increasing. i get nervous for no reason and it sucks. valentines day came and passed really quick. my day was nice though, i went to school, came home, ate dinner, did my laundry. the same as i usually do. ... life is boring sometimes . i do the same things over and over

2/13/24
i wait paitently for you like a dog waiting at the door

2/11/24
new layout (thank you andre) i got rid of the old blog entries since a lot of them were edgy and kinda dumb as hell so theres that. ummm life is moderate rn. im not actively trying to harm myself all the time but im not happy either. it feels like im missing something and i dont know what it is -__- i enjoy being around my friends. they're all rlly cool.